Here are some new art pieces to revel in!
Happy Anti Valentine’s Day 2024
Crappy Suckentine’s Day
I’m gonna post some old Anti Valentine’s Day pics. Even when I had a sexy vday lover to share these days with, I still made these great pics. These are pretty old so pardon the art styles. Still funny though!
Still Here
The more things change, the more they stay the same…no wait, that’s bullshit. I call BULLSHIT!
I really don’t like when things change for unnecessary reasons. Especially when whatever program, software or corporation makes it too obvious that they’re doing it just to get money. I don’t like how WordPress is so hard to use these days. It’s like you need a freakin’ degree or something to make a simple post. It’s ridiculous! Did you know that once upon a time, Photoshop was a program you could buy, just once, and own for years til you really needed to upgrade? Most times you didn’t need the upgrade. Even my local transit app is charging subscription fees for extra information and features. GTFO!
I find that the more I unmask my ADHD in real life, the less able I am to handle these kinds of changes. It makes me really…frustrated…to do the things I used to take for granted. Even just sitting at my computer makes me get flustered. I can’t seem to get the setup right. I can’t appreciate the tech I have. It’s perfectly fine, it’ll get the jobs done that I want done. But I’m uncomfortable. And I’m so aware now of my needs that if I can’t meet them, I end up getting paralyzed on the couch and doing nothing. I really don’t like it.
Well I’m still here though. And still trying. I’ll keep trying. It’s what I do. It’s in my blood, to keep trying, keep going. I’m like that cockroach that you can squish to a quarter of its height, and it gets up and keeps moving. Or you might bite my head off, but I’ll still keep going. Just longer than their week or so expected life once headless. Ya.
So I’m gonna try to do more art. I have the time. I’ve rid myself of that excuse of not having time and opportunity. I’m a bit…lonesome? Not having the best days of my life for the last six years. But I’m still here. And still trying.
I love my art. It just stings when I make it, and share it, and no one loves it back, ya know? I gotta work through that. I am working through that.
Happy Valentine’s Day.
Trying to be Creative
It isn’t easy.
I committed myself to being more creative with my time in June of this year. I came back from a festival and felt…not alive. I felt like the festival helped me live, but it felt like what I had at home, what I spent my time doing, was not living. So I chose to cut out the security job I was doing. That took a month because I’d already committed myself to working at another festival in July. And after that…I just feel different.
I don’t feel old. I feel…like I value time more. Like I see that time passes, and no matter how much or how little of it I have left, I want to use it the best way I know how. And that’s doing things I love doing.
I was doing a lot of hobbies. I gave most of my hobby supplies away. I was using hobbies as a way of keeping me busy. And nothing was ever finished, nothing was ever really done or created. Whereas when I write or do art, I feel accomplished almost immediately. I can see my progress. I can see it being appreciated. That matters to me.
I wish WordPress wasn’t so sucky. This is pretty tough to write in, as a medium, because the keystrokes aren’t being acknowledged. It’s that whole ‘in the cloud’ thing, where if you don’t have a fast enough computer or internet connect, it can’t connect and save to the cloud quickly enough to put it onto the ‘page’ if you will. I’m typing words quickly and they aren’t showing up. I guess that’s because so many people rely on auto correct for things. I really don’t. I know what I’m trying to say. I don’t need or want a system trying to do it for me.
I’m working on a book. And I have a new character I’m using based on my World of Warcraft experiences. I started playing that again. Yep, sure did. I’m lonely, don’t judge me. Of course, what’s lonelier than playing in a world as vast as WoW and not seeing any actual people? I don’t know. I’m better off going on a bus in real life, I’ll see plenty of people then. But I think I’ll be disappointed. Real people are so…real. Know what I mean?
I like elves. And orcs. And monsters. And things that in the real world would hurt but that in our world, well, they don’t. I like that.
Public Domain Day 2023
Basically:
January 1, 2023 is Public Domain Day: Works from 1927 are open to all! On January 1, 2023, copyrighted works from 1927 will enter the US public domain. 1 They will be free for all to copy, share, and build upon.
Here’s a linky-poo!
Public Domain Day 2023 – Duke University
So how will YOU use all this new schtuff??
Same Old Problem
So remember how long ago I had that problem with shadows, and I kinda just…gave it up? Well I’m trying again.
So far I’ve gone through each of the lights in my i13 Pro Light Ease sphere’s set and turned on and off shadows, turned shadow intensity to 5 just to test, turned the blur thing up to 0.5. Gotten nothing but lots of darkness! Not the kinda shadow I’m going for.
I found this explanatory website – Light Properties – which is helpful but really, it’s not helping ME resolve this issue. My buddy balthazarbludd said to check the set to see if it had shadows. Well apparently my props in this particular scene have no properties in their properties tab – which is where the shadow settings are kept. So. Nope.
This is pretty frustrating. I really want to go to Renderosity’s forums and ask for assistance but I’ve done that before and gotten nothing. I really need someone to hold my hand and just point shite out to me and say, click that…now that…okay now type that. And BOOM, have it done. Ya know? I don’t need to build character around this, I don’t believe. Sigh.