I’m gonna post some old Anti Valentine’s Day pics. Even when I had a sexy vday lover to share these days with, I still made these great pics. These are pretty old so pardon the art styles. Still funny though!
Crappy Suckentine’s Day
Found Jason Hill at Audible!
Weee! Gods this man’s voice rules me. And then I randomly checked Amazon.com to see if he was there. He was, and he IS!
First, there’s this book about vampires – what the fuck, I LOVE vampires! – and Jason is the narrator.
It’s free with an Audible account, which I happen to have..ahem! But I tell ya, I’d pay to hear Jason Hill saying ‘fuck’ the way he says ‘fuck’….fuck…!
He’s also included in one of the Chilling Tales for Dark Nights anthologies.
Wonder what story he narrates there? He’s so delicious. Sometimes when I’m listening to the Chilling Tales for Dark Nights podcasts, an ad for Horror Hill comes on, and it’s clearly an old one with Jason Hill narrating. Drives me nuts, it does. Gives me a wetty no matter where I am, time of day or night, bus or walking or sitting or shopping. Just…Jason Hill. Man, I love that voice. He’s so smooth. Like, the other narrators all remind me of someone else who is already famous. One at CTFDN sounds like Matthew Mcconaughey, another sounds like Justin Long. You can just picture this or that popular person telling the story. But Jason Hill is incredibly unique and I just can’t get enough of him.
Know who he reminds me of? Remember the Originals, the WB or CB or whatever vampire show spin-off to Vampire Diaries? And then there was the stuff with um, the witch girl and the blonde vampire, and the lil babies? But then there was that random vampire that came out of nowhere, seemed Cajun or something. Had a very Joe Manganiello look about him, but he was incredibly random and outstanding all at once. Jason Hill is like that. He’s just…his own original. Can’t get enough!
EDIT!! I had to research that vamp. It’s Enzo St. John, played by Michael (it’s just a bunch of) Malarkey.
I’ll download some of these and hopefully remember to come back and tell y’all how hot they were to listen to. Yum!
New Artwork New Self
So I made a thingy. A girly girl. My avatar of course. But this one I call DireBat!
See, I’ve been pretty consistent with my Metrobay Comics series. Sometimes I’m late or I have had to miss a monthly update. I never enjoy doing that. I don’t get a great deal of feedback there except from one of the admins, he’s very sweet to me. Well both are, everyone there is nice, in fact. If you haven’t found them on Discord, then I dunno what to tell ya! Anyway, anyone who knows me knows I struggle without feedback. It’s not so much that I thrive on validation as it is I thrive on dopamine. I’m an adult diagnosed ADHD, as well as some other really interesting Ds. Like one chick said to me, “I’ve got all the Ds except the one D I want!” Bwhahahaha! Neurodivergents. We are awesome.
So I’m trying to entertain myself with my art. I used to LOVE being in love online, and enjoyed making pics for people, especially of my characters in online games like World of Warcraft. But before WoW, before Everquest (the original!), there was Yahoo! Groups. And we roleplayed in those hard. Like, so hard. And that got me hot for adult roleplay pretty quickly.
Recently a family member who is very dear to me lashed out against me and my behaviours online. To be clear, I haven’t had anyone to play with like that for FOREVER! I really miss it, but I’ve been pretty busy in real life trying to sustain myself and my cute little family. We’re making it. Not thriving quite yet but soon. I’m too busy to really ‘fall in love’ if you will, with a nice sweet boy online. So anyway, this family member seemed pretty confused about some events that occurred about…twelve years ago now? Whatever. She’s allowed to have her pain. And it’s not my job to correct her narrative. I know my truth, cuz I was kinda there. And anyone who knows me knows I’m pretty damned transparent. To a fault. Gives me grief in real life at work, when some hoodlum wants me to be all ‘cool’ and secretive and I’m like, “uh no, hold on, calling da cops!” I can often be a Karen cuz of my need for transparency and to have things above board, all out on the table. Again, it’s a common ADHD thing.
Anyway, rambling. But that conversation with my family member really…stirred me up. Not in that I am suddenly having guilt. No, not at all. Probably the opposite…? I feel like I want to return to something I’ve lost over these long years, over this decade of divorce and division.
I used to be a sexual being. Since the baby (he’s 6yrs old, by the way!), I’ve been afraid of sex. And not just real life sex – I’ve been fearful of that cuz sex (even the protected kind!) = babies = near death experiences = no thank you! Online too, I’ve been avoiding sexual situations. I’ve been afraid of who I was, because people in real life made it out like I was bad.
I’m not bad. Since 1999, I have struggled with that thought, that my sexuality causes people to feel things, and that therefore I am responsible for their feelings. For the consequences of their feelings. For their hearts when they inevitably break.
I’m not. I’m not responsible for their hearts or their pain. I never lied. I don’t do that. And I break too. But my broken heart is on me, always on me. Sure, people can be real dicks sometimes. But getting hurt and getting broken, that’s on me. If someone is a dirty penis, I need to walk away. That’s up to me. I’ve never really been the revenge type. I tried it once, it failed horribly in that it succeeded soooo righteously. Ugh! XD But no, people online who have broken me, I’ve used what authorities and resources were available in whatever medium, and then left the scene.
Cuz that’s what we do. We don’t lash out. What’s the point? How does that make me bigger or better than anyone else? It sure doesn’t. How does that stop my pain? Sure doesn’t. And sure, knowing someone else is hurting as much as I might be does make my dark little heart pitter patter…but that’s not the real me. That’s a result of childhood trauma, neurodivergence, etc., etc., etc. The real me cares. Always. That’s why people ‘fall in love’ with me. Because so often, I attract people who need caring. And I give it, cuz hey, I love it!
I miss adult roleplay. I miss making art that makes ME wet. I miss making art for individual boys – and sometimes girls! – online that rocks them, that sticks with them, that hits them hard. I like hard…
I wanna be more me. I’m setting up my real life to let me be more me. It’s showing some results. Someone tried to seduce me a week or so ago. Me?? Like….me?? Someone asked to go for drinks. Someone gave me ‘the look’. I tend to drop the ball, or have for the last four years or so. But…now I want to play. I want to take that ball and own that friggin’ court. Like I used to.
I dunno where I’ll go with this urge. I dunno what game to play, since WoW is so politically and morally fucked, and the other games that have come out can’t compete with the world Blizzard created for me. But I can write for me. And I can make art for me. Art like this.
I hope you like it…I sure do. It’s like…masturbation worthy, mmm…
Creepy Pasta and Chilling Tales for Dark Nights
Well well! Lucky you! Two posts from me in ONE day!
This one is about writing, writing and more writing. Because of Covid-19 restrictions and safety protocols, I kind of gave up my spot where I was doing healing massage and energy work. They considered me a health care service, but while I do heal with people, I am covered under provincial ‘personal care’ services like nail salons and spas. We also had a conflict with a client…er friend…er, see, I got them confused even here! Things went south fast when I didn’t offer her the service she wanted, and so…yeah, just didn’t want to hang around there. If she needs that space to feel safe, then whatevs, I have my space inside of me!
Anyway! Babbling! So I have childcare every week day and am doing more and more art and slowly getting back into writing. Now the way I used to while away my hour long busride to work was listening to horror podcasts – specifically Chilling Tales for Dark Nights which is part of the Simply Scary Podcasts! Oh I love me some Jason Hill from Horror Hill….deeeelicious voice…He can hide under my bed any day, mmmm! Though he may not be allowed to leave, especially if he starts using those seductive tones of his!
Distracting! I want to submit stories to their site. I went to their Chilling Tales for Dark Nights Submissions – which actually takes you to the Creepy Pasta Submissions page – and found a whole bunch of scary stories categories. Well you know me, why do things the easy way? I have decided I shall fulfill each of the categories with a story. I’m gonna treat their category list like a sort of personal challenge for writing. Here’s the list:
Abductions and Kidnappings – strangers have the best candy
Animals and Wildlife – oh yes please
Apocalyptic and Dystopian – love it
Artifacts and Objects
Based on True Events – *coughs* Cecil Hotel *coughs*
Beings and Entities
Body Horror
Children and Childhood
Christmas and Holidays
Classic Horror
Conspiracies and Government – boy do I ever!
Creepypasta Classics
Dark Comedy, Humor, and Parodies – I can do humor, too, you know
Dark Fantasy – death from above, dragons reign!
Deaths, Murders, and Disappearances – Cecil Hotel, ammirite??
Demons and Possession
Dreams and Nightmares
Drugs and Addictions – Cecil Hotel…just sayin’
Feelspastas and Happy Endings – hrm….this one might give me difficulty…
Films and Footage
Folklore and Folktales
Ghosts and Spirits
Halloween Stories
Hell and the Afterlife – deeeeemons rising!!
Historical Fiction
Illness and Injuries
Insects, Spiders, and Parasites
Investigations and Crimes
Jobs and Occupations
Journals and Diaries
Locations and Sites
Madness, Paranoia, and Mental Illness
Medical and Hospitals
Military and Warfare
Monsters, Creatures, and Cryptids
Myths and Legends
Natural Disasters and Storms
Nature and the Outdoors
Occult, Magic, and Witchcraft
Poems and Poetry
Psychological Horror
Religion and Spirituality
Rites and Rituals
Science and Experimentation
Science Fiction and Aliens
Slashers and Gore
Sounds and Voices
Space and Cosmic Horror – Star Wars, Star Trek, LOVE LOVE LOVE! the Grays!
Survival Horror
Suspense and Thrillers
Technology, the Internet, and the Deep Web
Television and Lost Episodes
Torture and Cannibalism
Toys and Dolls
True Scary Stories
Urban Legends – can’t even easily pick a fave here, so many great ones!
Video Games and Gaming
Zombies and the Undead
What I’d love is for you to tell me any ideas YOU come up with that you think `I` might like! You know I love sexy things, and sure, their site isn’t really for erotica like mine. I can tone it down, no worries there. But I do so love scaring people. Oh you thought I was under your bed just for kicks and giggles? Silly munchkin!
Got any story ideas that fit in these? Want to fill me in on Creepy Past Classics? I’m familiar with their site and its impact on the interwebz but what makes it a classic story in the Creepy Past style?
My stories need to be more than 500 words. Feel free to drop a post and say something about what you’d like to see. I know I have my ideas. And yes, I will be sharing them here.
If possible, I hope to soon have my own horror podcast going. I will definitely share with you when I make some more progress. *purrs and blows kisses*
Practice Makes Purrrfect
I was going to spend some time with Darthhell trying to learn some new tips and tricks – we spent like an hour together in Skype/Picarto the other day and whoah… – but it wasn’t meant to happen this week afterall. Still, I’ve been practicing mah artz. Take a look and let me know what you think!
If you find you can’t comment, send me an email, lovelies. I fix messes!
I updated my Dirella figure a bit. Dressed her suit up, grew her tits a bit. The images are pretty dark over all, but I kinda like it that way. I tried to make the milk look okay, the cum from the orc. I need to practice liquids more.
I reinstalled WoW so I could get inspired again. It’s not easy. Looking around my garrison for my bank and there’s no bank…but I was sure I put a bank there…nope, apparently not. And the level crunch, and my character is so squishy! But at least I have all my toys. Like my lantern collection. Loving that part of the game again!