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DireLilith – The Night Ripper

This image is directly inspired by some youtube music I randomly listened to. I was and always am looking for dark synth, dark techno, dark EDM. And they have the fucking sexiest chicks in their thumbnail arts. Well this one channel, called Versus Music Official, has THE hottest chicks. I can’t tell if it’s manipulated art or if it’s photorealistic 3D art or what. But damn, I find it inspiring. Anyway, for comparison, here is the link to the mix that inspired this image:

And here is MY version of….The Night Ripper!

I really had to work to get the ass just right. I’m still not content with it but hey, if you don’t like asses, go somewhere else, okay? I like it. I think it turned out fucking purrrrfect. Damn. I just love it. I doubt I’d be able to work with my own avatar looking like this, she’s kinda bottom heavy to me. She wouldn’t fit clothes very well.

But…I can feel my new computer coming closer. I can taste it. And once I get that, I’m going to be using Daz Studio and Genesis 8 or higher to make my avatar yet again. I’ve had to remake her in the past. I’ve changed her lots of times. Making her new in DS with G8 is gonna be one helluva challenge. I hope it’s as fun as it sounds!

Anyway, thanks for looking! The guys working on the balcony next to my computer probably think I’m a pervert. Pbbttt to them! Muahahahaha!!

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While We’re Waiting…

In case you haven’t heard, I’m waiting for a new computer. Once I get one…boy am I ever gonna go to town! I’m gonna become the Daz Studio girl I always said I would NEVER be! That’ll teach me for using the word ‘never’, yeah?

Until then, my Discord friend balthazarbludd and I were talking about this great saying I found on Instagram:

Sooo fucking sexy… That gets me hot, right there…yum!

Anyway, I decided to offer a challenge to balth about making a picture for this! He banged one out really fast, and if he was more responsive in chat, I’d be asking him right now if I could post it here! But alas, alack, people have lives…

Here’s my first copy, straight out of Poser. Must say, it turned out pretty freakin’ good!

But…I know that with the tricks I’ve learned over the years on Photoshop, I could touch it up just a bit…Voila!

What do you think? I wanted to make it so she had that kinda hungry growl to her look…I was telling the guys that no matter what men think, no girl I know wants to be caught making stupid porno face! YOU guys might like it…we don’t like it! I wanted my girl to look powerful and mostly in control…mostly. But to have that little growl escape her lips as he drove home his point, if you will. Ahem!

Can’t wait to get that new computer.

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Still Here

The more things change, the more they stay the same…no wait, that’s bullshit. I call BULLSHIT!

I really don’t like when things change for unnecessary reasons. Especially when whatever program, software or corporation makes it too obvious that they’re doing it just to get money. I don’t like how WordPress is so hard to use these days. It’s like you need a freakin’ degree or something to make a simple post. It’s ridiculous! Did you know that once upon a time, Photoshop was a program you could buy, just once, and own for years til you really needed to upgrade? Most times you didn’t need the upgrade. Even my local transit app is charging subscription fees for extra information and features. GTFO!

I find that the more I unmask my ADHD in real life, the less able I am to handle these kinds of changes. It makes me really…frustrated…to do the things I used to take for granted. Even just sitting at my computer makes me get flustered. I can’t seem to get the setup right. I can’t appreciate the tech I have. It’s perfectly fine, it’ll get the jobs done that I want done. But I’m uncomfortable. And I’m so aware now of my needs that if I can’t meet them, I end up getting paralyzed on the couch and doing nothing. I really don’t like it.

Well I’m still here though. And still trying. I’ll keep trying. It’s what I do. It’s in my blood, to keep trying, keep going. I’m like that cockroach that you can squish to a quarter of its height, and it gets up and keeps moving. Or you might bite my head off, but I’ll still keep going. Just longer than their week or so expected life once headless. Ya.

So I’m gonna try to do more art. I have the time. I’ve rid myself of that excuse of not having time and opportunity. I’m a bit…lonesome? Not having the best days of my life for the last six years. But I’m still here. And still trying.

I love my art. It just stings when I make it, and share it, and no one loves it back, ya know? I gotta work through that. I am working through that.

Happy Valentine’s Day.

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New Artwork New Self

So I made a thingy. A girly girl. My avatar of course. But this one I call DireBat!

See, I’ve been pretty consistent with my Metrobay Comics series. Sometimes I’m late or I have had to miss a monthly update. I never enjoy doing that. I don’t get a great deal of feedback there except from one of the admins, he’s very sweet to me. Well both are, everyone there is nice, in fact. If you haven’t found them on Discord, then I dunno what to tell ya! Anyway, anyone who knows me knows I struggle without feedback. It’s not so much that I thrive on validation as it is I thrive on dopamine. I’m an adult diagnosed ADHD, as well as some other really interesting Ds. Like one chick said to me, “I’ve got all the Ds except the one D I want!” Bwhahahaha! Neurodivergents. We are awesome.

So I’m trying to entertain myself with my art. I used to LOVE being in love online, and enjoyed making pics for people, especially of my characters in online games like World of Warcraft. But before WoW, before Everquest (the original!), there was Yahoo! Groups. And we roleplayed in those hard. Like, so hard. And that got me hot for adult roleplay pretty quickly.

Recently a family member who is very dear to me lashed out against me and my behaviours online. To be clear, I haven’t had anyone to play with like that for FOREVER! I really miss it, but I’ve been pretty busy in real life trying to sustain myself and my cute little family. We’re making it. Not thriving quite yet but soon. I’m too busy to really ‘fall in love’ if you will, with a nice sweet boy online. So anyway, this family member seemed pretty confused about some events that occurred about…twelve years ago now? Whatever. She’s allowed to have her pain. And it’s not my job to correct her narrative. I know my truth, cuz I was kinda there. And anyone who knows me knows I’m pretty damned transparent. To a fault. Gives me grief in real life at work, when some hoodlum wants me to be all ‘cool’ and secretive and I’m like, “uh no, hold on, calling da cops!” I can often be a Karen cuz of my need for transparency and to have things above board, all out on the table. Again, it’s a common ADHD thing.

Anyway, rambling. But that conversation with my family member really…stirred me up. Not in that I am suddenly having guilt. No, not at all. Probably the opposite…? I feel like I want to return to something I’ve lost over these long years, over this decade of divorce and division.

I used to be a sexual being. Since the baby (he’s 6yrs old, by the way!), I’ve been afraid of sex. And not just real life sex – I’ve been fearful of that cuz sex (even the protected kind!) = babies = near death experiences = no thank you! Online too, I’ve been avoiding sexual situations. I’ve been afraid of who I was, because people in real life made it out like I was bad.

I’m not bad. Since 1999, I have struggled with that thought, that my sexuality causes people to feel things, and that therefore I am responsible for their feelings. For the consequences of their feelings. For their hearts when they inevitably break.

I’m not. I’m not responsible for their hearts or their pain. I never lied. I don’t do that. And I break too. But my broken heart is on me, always on me. Sure, people can be real dicks sometimes. But getting hurt and getting broken, that’s on me. If someone is a dirty penis, I need to walk away. That’s up to me. I’ve never really been the revenge type. I tried it once, it failed horribly in that it succeeded soooo righteously. Ugh! XD But no, people online who have broken me, I’ve used what authorities and resources were available in whatever medium, and then left the scene.

Cuz that’s what we do. We don’t lash out. What’s the point? How does that make me bigger or better than anyone else? It sure doesn’t. How does that stop my pain? Sure doesn’t. And sure, knowing someone else is hurting as much as I might be does make my dark little heart pitter patter…but that’s not the real me. That’s a result of childhood trauma, neurodivergence, etc., etc., etc. The real me cares. Always. That’s why people ‘fall in love’ with me. Because so often, I attract people who need caring. And I give it, cuz hey, I love it!

I miss adult roleplay. I miss making art that makes ME wet. I miss making art for individual boys – and sometimes girls! – online that rocks them, that sticks with them, that hits them hard. I like hard…

I wanna be more me. I’m setting up my real life to let me be more me. It’s showing some results. Someone tried to seduce me a week or so ago. Me?? Like….me?? Someone asked to go for drinks. Someone gave me ‘the look’. I tend to drop the ball, or have for the last four years or so. But…now I want to play. I want to take that ball and own that friggin’ court. Like I used to.

I dunno where I’ll go with this urge. I dunno what game to play, since WoW is so politically and morally fucked, and the other games that have come out can’t compete with the world Blizzard created for me. But I can write for me. And I can make art for me. Art like this.

I hope you like it…I sure do. It’s like…masturbation worthy, mmm…

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Them Damned WebP Files – Edited2x

So I use Firefox. I love Firefox. But FireFox is trying to be all cool and shite, and support servers avoiding sharing actual img or png files – instead, the browser will check with the server, then throw up these webp images. I’m sure there’s a great reason…but I don’t care!

There are problems with webp files. My Photoshop can’t even open them to convert them to something more suitable for what I need. So I can’t put them into programs like Poser or put them into my pictures. I saw that some people couldn’t even upload them to sites like Imagur or whatever.

So how do you fix this? Well! Guess who just learned that?!!?

First, I am no professional, so don’t do this and then come to me saying yer browser is now fucked. I ain’t responsible for anything you break in your browser. That being said…

If you open a new tab of Firefox and type in this phrase – about:config – a whole new world opens to you! First, Firefox is gonna say “Are you sure you’re sure about this??” because probably this is access to things that can fuck up your browser. Don’t accept the responsibility if you’re not prepared!

I, of course, was. I’m a queen of fucking shit up and getting out of it, so I went ahead!

An empty ‘page’ of sorts opened with a search bar. In the search bar, you’ll be typing two phrases and checking them.

One phrase is this – image.webp.enabled

Mine said it was ‘true’ – I changed that motherfucker to false! Boom!

The second phrase is this – image.http.accept

Originally it says image/webp,*/* but you can change it, either double clicking or clicking on the Edit pencil icon if there is one. I changed mine to image/webp,/ => /

Guess what? It worked! One page showed up with NO IMAGES anymore, cuz the server wanted to only show me webp things. Fuck that site! Another site gave me the jpg file I hoped and dreamt for. So boom, take that, FireFox!

Here are the sites I used to ‘learn’ about this stuff:

Images won’t save correctly after update

Firefox 65 supports Google’s WebP Image format

EDIT 1: I say 1 cuz I’m sure I’ll be back to show you how to fix what broke! So, now the images on my own damned site aren’t showing up! I’ll figure out how to fix this and return, fear not!

EDIT 2: Okay, so I found another site – How to Disable Saving Images on Webp Format – and I did what they said to do, which was completely remove the entry or whatever in the image:http:accept thing. I hit delete and then clicked the Checkmark icon to accept the change. Reloaded my browser fresh, and my images are back on my site. If I find any other wrongful things, I shall come and let you know!

Told you I weren’t no pro at dis!