Category: DireLilith

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REPOST: From My Patreon – Pausing Dynamic Posting

I wasn’t posting a lot here anyway, but I did plan to. Here is my repost from my Patreon site:

Greetings, friends.

In May of this year 2024, I lost someone who had been as close to me as a father. He was my friend, he was my mentor, and he was my employer. I worked for him since 2001 online, doing customer service and website coding for his various adult paysites.

I’m still reeling from this loss. I lost my father figure and my income in one blow. I could have been more prepared. I even asked him if he thought he was dying at the beginning of this March, and I told him I wasn’t ready. I really wasn’t. Am not.

It’s been hard.

Thankfully Patreon allows me to upload in advance, so I’ve got lots of content ready for new members, and lots of uploads scheduled. But you can guess surely that I’m not keen on art right now.

This man guided me into the world of Poser art. He paid for the program probably twice in the 23yrs I knew him. He bought me Photoshop at one point, before it was a subscription based service. He bought me a new computer maybe twice? I really relied on him. I owed him a lot. He helped me stretch my artist wings. I never thought I’d get beyond drawing crap 2D art, and I thought the furthest I’d ever get was using whatever that old photo editing program that used to be included in MS suite to do photo manipulations. He made me think I could do more and make more.

So yeah. It’s hard. To sit here and create. I know I’ll get through it. But the financial blow has been challenging.

I lost my main source of income. I just bought a new computer, went into debt to make that a reality because I wanted to make this switch to Daz Studio, right? I went for it because I believed I could do something with it. The debt isn’t huge but it’s real.

I have choices. I have some small support. I’m not going to be homeless. But things are tight. And I don’t have the faith in options that I had before. I always had his help, even when we didn’t talk for months because of his hospital stays. He always took care of me, even when he was sick. We didn’t have ‘that’ kind of relationship either. He never asked or expected that of me. He treated me like a person.

It’s taken me time to be able to post this. I’ll probably copy and paste this to my personal DireLilith.com in all truth, because I didn’t think of it before. I’m in survival mode. I’m looking for real world work while trying to help other artists we worked with who are affected by this income loss. We’ll get through. It’s just not going to be the same.

I didn’t talk to him as often as I wanted to. He didn’t prepare the business we shared for his passing, for what I would need in order to keep things going. I think he thought he covered the bases and basics with me. He didn’t. So I’m catching up and making new plans.

I’m pretty devastated. I still keep saying ‘he is’ instead of ‘he was’, things like that. I have real world struggles and I think, “maybe I should email him…” and then remember I can’t, and never will again.

Ah well.

Anyway, just in case there’s a modicum of compassion within anyone there to join my site out of pity, I’m totally okay with that. A dollar helps.

And if you like my art, but don’t have dollars, please share your good thoughts. Because I want to be motivated again. I just need a new foundation. I don’t have that figurehead anymore to show my macaroni necklaces to, if you understand the analogy or metaphor or whatever. I could use that to get back into things. Maybe soon.

Thank you for listening to my little story. This too shall pass. Time doesn’t heal all wounds, but it does make excellent scars.

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*REPOST* Revera Lives!

THIS is Revera Z. She’s alive. I could cry. I’m so happy for her.

This render in Daz Studio 4 took over an hour. I’m serious, within five minutes the image was already worthy of sharing. But I let it run because this is the real first pic of the updated Revera Zedd.

She’s gorgeous. She’s so hot. I have to work on her body still, those pics will not be free in the future because I won’t cover up her gorgeous chachas and hoohah. She’s too sexy not to be shared! But she’ll end up being censored, for sure.

I love her. I started making Revera years ago for my friend Zeddikins by commissioned request. Then I just couldn’t let her go. She’s sensual and silly but classy. And still somehow slutty. She’s just every man’s dream of what a sexy redhead should be! She’s an elf some of the time, modern woman the rest of the time. And she’s been everything from a sexy librarian type to a warrior with a sword!

She’s iconic of my work. You’ll be seeing more of her, I guarantee. Now that she’s alive in my new program with my new computer, she won’t be going anywhere for awhile.

Guess I’ll spend the rest of the day playing with her sexy bits…muahahahaha!! Pay me, dammit, because this is WORK!!! Hahahaha!

This is reposted from my Patreon page – DireLilith’s Den @ Patreon – if you’d like to join up and support my work!

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*NEW* Hot Sweet Redhead Pinups

Check her out! Here are three pics of this hot sweet redhead pinup girl with ginormous titties. I’m also going to redo these in postwork, see what my new style needs to be.

I’ll do an OLD then a NEW, one after the other, so you can compare.

So what do you think? I think I’m still content using Darthhell’s old tips and tricks on my newer images. I’m not completely happy with Daz Studio by the way. Not for a second. Sometimes when I’m in there and moving things around, I miss Poser so badly. And when I’m shopping or clearing out my wishlist at Renderosity, removing all the Poser or V4 based items, I have so much guilt. I swore I’d never use Daz. Now I beat myself up for it because who are we if we don’t stick to our principles??

Anyway. Ahem. Sniff sniff. Still making pinups. And working on an amazing DireLilith comic, slowly buying the products I will need for it. That demon baby you see in my new signature – what do you think about it? It’s relevant 😉 Something about demon babies…I dunno…Ever see Rosemary’s Baby? Or the recent Immaculate? Good stuff!

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Daz Studio Update

I did it! I got my new computer! Sure, I had to go into debt for it…and I’m definitely going to be overpaying for the system. But it WORKS! AND…it lets me use Daz Studio!

Remember when I hated on Daz Studio? Those days aren’t far behind me…it’s a hard program to learn. They do things differently in there, the UI is awful and the directories are hard to memorize and understand. Somehow I have three different libraries, and not organized libraries like in my Poser program. In Poser I was able to make custom libraries; I had one for adult poses and products, two for girls, two for boys, just for the characters, mind you. I had two clothes libraries, two pose libraries. I liked keeping the products nicely organized, so I didn’t have to do a lot of scrolling, and so that when I wanted something, I just went and got it.

Daz doesn’t seem to allow me to do that…yet. I’m sure there’s some way. I’ll find it. And I’ll reorganize everything, some day. For now, I’m trying to learn the program. And it’s going well. I ‘hate’ it, still. I probably always will. It’s this new perception people have, where everything is corporate, why fight the system, just accept it… “Just take it,” whispered softly by a horny and raspy voice with deep bass, into your ears, while it steals your money…

Anyway, I’m going to throw up a few images of what I’ve done in the next post. I’m reworking my Canadian Beaver story. The last update posted at Metrobay Comix, W.I.-L.O. and the gang were going back to the past. But Ubique was tagging along! So now they’re in a brand new universe/dimension. Is it because Willow used nefarious means to get there in the first place, when she was being controlled by the villainess? Or did the trip back home fail because of Ubique jumping into a timeline she was never supposed to be in? You know, they say you can’t exist in multiple universes at the same time. Some theories say that the same ‘thing’ can’t occupy the same space, so if you tried, you could cause the world to, well, explode! Or blow up or something! So maybe that’s what happened. I dunno.

I’m trying to be more organized and professional with the story. I’m trying to plot things out, do some writing beforehand. Usually I wing it. Well if I’m debuting a new story, and using a better program and computer, it’s time to up my game across the board.

Oh also?

New computer?

…plays Star Citizen like a fucking dream…just saying…

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DireLilith – The Night Ripper

This image is directly inspired by some youtube music I randomly listened to. I was and always am looking for dark synth, dark techno, dark EDM. And they have the fucking sexiest chicks in their thumbnail arts. Well this one channel, called Versus Music Official, has THE hottest chicks. I can’t tell if it’s manipulated art or if it’s photorealistic 3D art or what. But damn, I find it inspiring. Anyway, for comparison, here is the link to the mix that inspired this image:

And here is MY version of….The Night Ripper!

I really had to work to get the ass just right. I’m still not content with it but hey, if you don’t like asses, go somewhere else, okay? I like it. I think it turned out fucking purrrrfect. Damn. I just love it. I doubt I’d be able to work with my own avatar looking like this, she’s kinda bottom heavy to me. She wouldn’t fit clothes very well.

But…I can feel my new computer coming closer. I can taste it. And once I get that, I’m going to be using Daz Studio and Genesis 8 or higher to make my avatar yet again. I’ve had to remake her in the past. I’ve changed her lots of times. Making her new in DS with G8 is gonna be one helluva challenge. I hope it’s as fun as it sounds!

Anyway, thanks for looking! The guys working on the balcony next to my computer probably think I’m a pervert. Pbbttt to them! Muahahahaha!!